Chapter 9: Echoes of the First Battle
The village of Oakridge had fallen quiet as twilight deepened into night. Gone were the screams of battle, replaced by the soft moans of the wounded and the hushed conversations of the survivors. Kaelen sat on a fallen log at the edge of the village square, his armor removed, his body aching in places he hadn't known could hurt.
Around him, the aftermath of violence was written in blood and ash. Bodies lay covered with cloaks—some bearing Ironveil's colors, others the mismatched garb of the Ravagers. Knights moved among the wounded, offering water or bandages or simply words of comfort. Villagers huddled together near the remains of the communal hall, their faces hollow with shock and grief.
Kaelen's gaze drifted to a man lying motionless just ten paces away—a raider he had cut down with that spinning technique he'd copied. The man's face was visible beneath the edge of the cloak, eyes staring sightlessly at the darkening sky. It was the first life Kaelen had ever taken. He had expected to feel something profound—triumph, perhaps, or remorse. Instead, he felt only a cold emptiness, as if some vital part of himself had been left behind on the battlefield.
His hands moved mechanically as he cleaned his sword, wiping the blade with an oiled cloth to remove the blood before it could tarnish the steel. The routine was familiar, comforting in its simplicity. Clean the blade. Check the edge. Sheathe it properly. The lessons of the training yard remained intact, even as everything else seemed to shift beneath his feet.
With each stroke of the cloth, his mind replayed fragments of the battle—not in the confused blur that most men described, but with perfect, crystalline clarity. He remembered every movement he had made, every technique he had borrowed, every strike he had delivered. And he remembered, with painful precision, the moment when it had all fallen apart.
He had tried to switch between styles too quickly, his mind recognizing the need for a different approach while his body was still committed to another. In that fractional hesitation, death had nearly found him. Only Ser Dain's intervention had kept him among the living.
"You're brooding."
Kaelen looked up to find Ser Dain standing before him, the old knight's weathered face streaked with dirt and blood, his eyes tired but alert.
"I'm thinking," Kaelen corrected.
"Mm." Ser Dain eased himself down onto the log beside Kaelen, his armor creaking with the movement. "You fought well today."
Kaelen didn't answer. What was there to say? He had survived his first battle, but only through the intervention of a more experienced warrior. He had killed men, but he had also frozen when it mattered most. The victory belonged to Ironveil, but he could claim no particular glory in it.
After a moment of silence, Ser Dain sighed—a sound as worn as his armor.
"You hesitate because you still fight like a thief, not a warrior," the old knight said.
Kaelen's hands stilled on his blade. The words struck true, landing with the precision of a well-aimed arrow. He had stolen techniques from every warrior he had ever observed, amassing a collection of movements without truly understanding the principles behind them. It had been enough in the training yard, where mistakes were met with bruises rather than death. But real battle had exposed the fatal flaw in his approach.
"I know," he admitted, the words bitter on his tongue.
Ser Dain nodded, as if he had expected no other answer. "It is a beginning," he said.
"A beginning of what?"
"Wisdom." The old knight's eyes moved across the village square, taking in the scene with the practiced assessment of a veteran. "Most men never recognize the limits of their knowledge. They die still believing themselves masters of skills they barely comprehend."
A group of knights passed nearby, carrying a body on a makeshift stretcher. Kaelen's breath caught as he recognized the face—Toran, a fellow squire, only a year older than himself. They had trained together occasionally, though they had never been close. During the battle, they had fought within sight of each other, Toran holding his own against a pair of raiders until Kaelen had lost track of him in the chaos.
Now Toran was dead, his eyes closed, his expression unnervingly peaceful.
Kaelen watched as the knights carried the body toward the village's small shrine, where the honored dead were being prepared for the journey back to Ironveil. A cold knot formed in his stomach as he realized: he had been so focused on mimicking that spinning technique, on proving his own skill, that he had never checked Toran's flank. The raiders he had been fighting might have been the very ones who had eventually overwhelmed the other squire.
"If I had just moved differently," Kaelen said, the words escaping before he could hold them back. "If I had chosen better—"
"Regret is a heavy sword," Ser Dain interrupted, his voice uncharacteristically gentle. He placed a firm hand on Kaelen's shoulder. "Wield it too long, and it will cut you apart."
Kaelen wanted to argue, to insist that his regret was justified, that he deserved to carry the weight of his failure. But the exhaustion of battle had seeped into his bones, making even the simple act of speaking seem too great an effort.
"Rest," Ser Dain said, rising to his feet. "We return to Ironveil at first light."
Sleep found Kaelen eventually, huddled beneath a borrowed cloak in the stable that had been converted to temporary barracks for the knights. But with sleep came dreams, vivid and disturbing in their clarity.
He stood alone in a circle, sword in hand, surrounded by shadows that gradually took form. They were his own reflections—dozens of versions of himself, each wielding a different weapon, each moving with a different style. One carried twin daggers and moved with the quick, darting motions of an assassin. Another hefted a massive two-handed blade, its stance wide and powerful. A third wielded a spear with elegant precision, while a fourth danced with a slender rapier.
One by one, they attacked him. Kaelen defended himself desperately, trying to match each opponent with an appropriate counter. But as soon as he adapted to one style, another reflection would strike from a different angle, using a completely different approach. He couldn't keep up with the barrage, couldn't shift quickly enough between the techniques he had stolen.
The reflections pressed closer, their attacks becoming more coordinated, more relentless. Kaelen felt his defenses crumbling, his body unable to respond to the conflicting demands of his mind. He stumbled, fell to one knee—and watched in horror as his own blade, wielded by a shadow-self, plunged toward his chest.
He awoke with a gasp, sweat-soaked despite the autumn chill. Around him, the other knights slept on, their breathing steady in the darkness. Kaelen sat up, pressing the heels of his hands against his eyes as if he could physically push the dream away.
But the images lingered, carrying a truth he could no longer ignore: he was drowning in stolen knowledge, suffocating beneath the weight of techniques he had accumulated but never truly mastered.
Dawn found him already awake, his gear packed, his mind clearer than it had been since the battle. As the knights prepared for the journey back to Ironveil, Kaelen stood at the edge of the temporary practice yard where some of the more seasoned warriors were running through morning exercises—not full sparring, but the basic forms that kept their muscles loose and ready.
He watched them with new eyes, seeing not just the techniques they employed but the intention behind each movement. Ser Aldric favored power over speed, his strikes economical and direct. Ser Hallen, by contrast, relied on agility and precision, wasting no energy on flourishes. Each knight had adapted universal principles to suit their own strengths and limitations.
The revelation struck Kaelen with the force of physical blow: he had been imitating for the sake of imitation, collecting techniques like trophies without understanding their purpose. He had tried to be every warrior he had ever seen, and in doing so, had become none of them.
"I don't need to be every warrior," he murmured to himself. "I need to be a warrior."
The words felt right, settling into place like a sword finding its balance in his hand. With renewed purpose, Kaelen sought out Ser Dain, finding the old knight overseeing the loading of supplies for the journey home.
"I need to ask you something," Kaelen said without preamble.
Ser Dain glanced at him, then returned to checking the straps on a supply wagon. "Ask."
"Will you teach me?" The question came out more tentatively than Kaelen had intended. He straightened his shoulders and tried again. "Not to copy, but to learn. To understand."
The old knight's hands stilled on the leather straps. For a long moment, he said nothing, his weathered face unreadable in the early morning light. Then, slowly, he turned to face Kaelen fully.
"Why?" The question was simple, direct, demanding honesty.
Kaelen thought of the battle, of the moment his body had betrayed him. He thought of Toran, carried away on a makeshift stretcher. He thought of his dream, of being overwhelmed by the very techniques he had stolen.
"Because I don't want to die," he said finally. "And I don't want anyone else to die because of my ignorance."
Ser Dain studied him, his gaze as sharp as any blade Kaelen had ever faced. Whatever the old knight saw in Kaelen's expression seemed to satisfy him.
"Then your real training begins," he said with a nod. "When we return to Ironveil."
The journey back was slow, the column's pace dictated by the wagons carrying the wounded and the dead. Kaelen rode in silence, his thoughts turned inward. The weight of his first battle still pressed upon him, but now it was joined by a sense of purpose, a clarity that had been missing before.
As they crested the final hill and the walls of Ironveil came into view, Kaelen made a silent vow. He would learn—truly learn—what it meant to be a warrior. Not by stealing techniques, but by understanding them. Not by imitating others, but by discovering his own strength.
The echoes of his first battle would remain with him, a constant reminder of the price of failure. But they would also be the foundation upon which he would build something new: not an empty vessel filled with borrowed knowledge, but a warrior forged through understanding and purpose.
As the gates of Ironveil opened to receive them, Kaelen squared his shoulders and set his gaze forward. The real journey was just beginning.
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